Unwanted Help Needed

(Verse 1)
When am I gonna learn?
I'm going crazy trying to keep this blessing

from turning into a four letter word
But she's fly like a bird
All I gotta do flirt and play a

little church and I can bag like a purse
Now I know I got it all wrong
'cause the very thought of what I want

is re-nailing my Savior's hand to the cross
But a sinner's story saves the lost
As if that excuse would let me off the hook like a chorus
You can say your boy is a real trip
Falling for the first chick that so called completes

this half a bad boy like Will Smith
But no I won't admit I need a lift
Although I know whose blood turns a

dirty scrub into a fresh prince
Why can't I have my fun?
How about I please my ease, hurt you some more,

and maybe then I'll be done
My Lord, I need a change like money back
I'll leave these burdens here but

don't touch them 'cause I may want them back

(Verse 2)
It all started off a simple Saturday
Ain't much to do
Ran into these dudes that I had been witnessing to
These are the kind of dudes that

walk a fine line with the rules
So you tell to believe in Christ

and they feel there's too much to lose
I always keep to my truths
They keep to theirs' by smoking and drinking their booze
I'm not the type to be persuaded easily standing firm
Their attractions don’t appeal to me
I'm a changed man
Baggage off my back they respect me,

I pray for them and that's been that
So we chilled, played cards, nothing really absurd
Their wrongs seemed so right I was catching an urge
Devil gonna flee when I resist him
had my enemy close I didn't mind his existence
Had a choice to make
Instant gratification that feels great

or kill my witness and lose my faith
Can't take witnessing as a joke
'cause when it comes to my friends becoming vegetables
I've been in the art to choke
I don't wanna be the one that's the lame
Simple choice dead my friends or the Lamb who was slain
The battle's won yet I felt defeated
If the answer's between the lines

help me Father 'cause I can't read it
I'm young I wanna have fun I feel cheated
Help me Father
Unwanted help needed